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Walking in the Stream

Scattered and confused reflections.

Scattered and confused reflections.

While I took my morning stroll, my mind was running at a frantic pace. Sometimes the thoughts have a logical connection, others my mind simply hops from one idea to another seemingly without meaning. Most of the thoughts contain nothing grand, or stressful but the sheer volume overwhelmed me, leaving me emotionally confused. For some reason, I thought I would share. All this came to mind during a 10 minute walk, and I’m sure more thoughts crossed my mind, but were not memorable enough to recall.

I’m presenting two versions, the first called ‘For Your Sanity’ separates the thoughts a bit so you can comfortably read through it. The second, title ‘The Wall’ captures a bit more closely that feeling of being overwhelmed by my thoughts.

For Your Sanity

Did I turn in that paperwork? It would be a little bit of money.

Hospital bills will be coming in. I should call that other insurance and see if they’ll pay anything because I had a heart attack.

I need to check on things at job 2.

What am I going to eat today?

I should do more cleaning up while I have this time off.

Was that two laps or three?

What am I doing with Cub Scouts this week?

Oh, Thursday is Maunday Thursday at church.

How am I supposed to balance carbs, sodium and calories at the same time and actually set a diet I can stick with?

I’d like to run a Dungeons and Dragons campaign for the kids.

Maybe I should do some laundry.

I wonder if that Fitbit thing is worth it.

What are we doing this weekend? Oh yeah, Easter. Isn’t one of the kids singing on Sunday?

What do I need to have ready for class tonight?

I need to call and get a date for my follow up doctor’s appointment. And get a referral for rehab. Hope I can get the early session.

Maybe I can go to the office and turn in that paperwork.

Need to get Steven Paul this afternoon.

My knee hurts a little bit, is that just normal pain, or does it mean something else? Does my chest hurt? No, but it sure is cold this morning, freezing the lungs a bit.

Should I stop, or can I do another lap?

Better take my pills when I get inside.

What is Charlie howling at?

I want some more chickens, but probably not a good idea right now. Maybe when it gets warmer.

I’m actually feeling pretty good right now.

I need to get some paint and work on some terrain for a game. Wish I had a steady gaming group. I wonder if I know some folks who game but I don’t even realize it.

Isn’t today payday? Maybe I should pay the bills this morning. Might want to wait for Elizabeth just in case.

Jane Marie seems more grown up this week. Hope me getting sick didn’t cause it. Maybe it was time though. Will I get to dance at her wedding?

Did I grab my nitro pills this morning? There they are, but I forgot my cell phone.

I need to fill in my calendar with all the kids’ activities that are coming up.

I need to clean out the car.

Have I really taught the students much at all?

I need to finish that bird feeder. I wonder if I could sell it?

The strips for checking my blood sugar expired. Can I order those from Amazon?

Since my group is small, maybe I can get Cub Scouts to meet on Wednesday night so we don’t miss a meeting this week.

There’s a lot of stuff running through my mind, I should write some of it down.

The Wall

Did I turn in that paperwork? It would be a little bit of money. Hospital bills will be coming in. I should call that other insurance and see if they’ll pay anything because I had a heart attack. I need to check on things at job 2. What am I going to eat today? I should do more cleaning up while I have this time off. Was that two laps or three? What am I doing with Cub Scouts this week? Oh, Thursday is Maunday Thursday at church. How am I supposed to balance carbs, sodium and calories at the same time and actually set a diet I can stick with? I’d like to run a Dungeons and Dragons campaign for the kids. Maybe I should do some laundry. I wonder if that Fitbit thing is worth it. What are we doing this weekend? Oh yeah, Easter. Isn’t one of the kids singing on Sunday? What do I need to have ready for class tonight? I need to call and get a date for my follow up doctor’s appointment. And get a referral for rehab. Hope I can get the early session. Maybe I can go to the office and turn in that paperwork. Need to get Steven Paul this afternoon. My knee hurts a little bit, is that just normal pain, or does it mean something else? Does my chest hurt? No, but it sure is cold this morning, freezing the lungs a bit. Should I stop, or can I do another lap? Better take my pills when I get inside. What is Charlie howling at? I want some more chickens, but probably not a good idea right now. Maybe when it gets warmer. I’m actually feeling pretty good right now. I need to get some paint and work on some terrain for a game. Wish I had a steady gaming group. I wonder if I know some folks who game but I don’t even realize it. Isn’t today payday? Maybe I should pay the bills this morning. Might want to wait for Elizabeth just in case. Jane Marie seems more grown up this week. Hope me getting sick didn’t cause it. Maybe it was time though. Will I get to dance at her wedding? Did I grab my nitro pills this morning? There they are, but I forgot my cell phone. I need to fill in my calendar with all the kids’ activities that are coming up. I need to clean out the car. Have I really taught the students much at all? I need to finish that bird feeder. I wonder if I could sell it? The strips for checking my blood sugar expired. Can I order those from Amazon? Since my group is small, maybe I can get Cub Scouts to meet on Wednesday night so we don’t miss a meeting this week. There’s a lot of stuff running through my mind, I should write some of it down.

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